In the following days, however, the situation at home changed radically. She became cold and detached and I didn’t know how to behave.
I kept thinking about the sensations of that moment.
The joy of possessing her, the pleasure of fucking her, the power of penetrating her; she had liked it, I was sure of it, she had enjoyed it a lot.
I had felt strong, dominant, as if Luisa couldn’t do without me, until the revelation that had hit me like a blow.
I let myself be assailed by shyness and shame, feeling terribly guilty for what I had done, for having taken her by force, at least in the initial phase when I had pushed her onto the sofa and possessed her.
I hadn’t asked or even made my intentions clear, not allowing her to accept or refuse.
On several occasions I tried to talk to her, to ask, she simply replied that she was fine but very busy with work.
Once, by insisting, I managed to get her to unblock me, but she burst into tears and told me that my behavior had deeply upset her, even though she had enjoyed it with me.
I apologized and tried to reconnect a relationship fractured by my reckless actions.
If I tried to get closer, she moved away, even a simple hug was not appreciated.
She, however, continued with her provocations in an incessant ballet of contradictions; she was always in her underwear, when she was on the sofa, while I was studying, she caressed her arms and legs in a very sensual way and some nights I heard her moaning with passion with her beloved vibrator.
Unknowingly, I withdrew into myself, always trying to find a way to remedy my mistake.
When I could, I cooked her food, I did her cleaning, I helped her with anything and she appreciated it, but she always maintained that detached attitude; she was no longer the Lu who twirled around me happy and carefree.
I didn’t even jerk off anymore, too afraid of offending her in some way, I hid my erections with baggy pants and pillows and Luisa looked at me, imagined everything and secretly enjoyed these humiliations of mine.
Almost two months passed and then she reacted to this whole confusing situation.
She decided everything.
One evening I was in bed reading a novel when she came into her room.
-“Hi, can I?”
-“Yes, of course!”
I put the book down and make room for her on the bed by sitting down and crossing my legs.
I was wearing my usual t-shirt and boxers, ready to sleep, and she was wearing a loose tunic that barely covered her buttocks.
She sits at the foot of the bed, crossing her beautiful naked legs and showing her pubic area for a moment.
She puts a hand on my knee and looks me straight in the eyes.
-“Listen… I’ve decided to forgive you.” – she begins – “You’re always so good and kind and you’ve realized your mistake, which is the most important thing. I want to put what happened behind me, I won’t forget it, obviously, but I can’t let that instinctive moment ruin our relationship completely.”
Incredulous and relieved, I take her hand in mine, squeezing it.
-“Thank you, really, I’m infinitely grateful… I was stupid, I ask your forgiveness again.”
-”We had become so close and complicit that I have to be honest, I miss all of this. Yes, maybe you don’t deserve it, but I know you won’t do anything like that again, at least without my consent”.
-”Absolutely not. Never!”
-”I think we’ll easily go back to the relationship we had, but if you want it, you’ll have to do what I tell you to do, without taking spontaneous initiatives. Are you up for it?”.
-”What did that mean?” – I think – “That I wouldn’t force her anymore? Not that, of course not. There couldn’t be any other meanings to his proposal”.
-”Yes. Whatever you want, whenever you want, that’s fine with me” – I reply.
I was completely entrusting myself into his hands; I didn’t know how and to what extent yet.
-”Perfect. I know you won’t disappoint me again” – he says smiling.
-”Now I really want to.” – he continues –“You know I have a vibrator that I sometimes have fun with. I thought you could come over and watch while… I do it… without interfering, as a show of good will”.
My eyes widen in amazement.
In a minute, my cousin had gone from not paying me any attention to me to offering to watch her masturbation session with her sex toy.
-“Come on,”
She takes my hand and stands up, pulling me towards the door of her room with a huge smile plastered on her face.
I follow her, stunned, still unable to realize what is happening.
In her room, she quickly frees the chair, placed exactly in front of the bed, and makes me sit down.
In front of my wide eyes, she very slowly removes the tunic from her head; her pubis with the blond bush, her navel and sexy belly and her breasts with the bristly nipples appear.
Then she turns and slowly bends forward, exposing her round and full buttocks.
I am going crazy, my heart is racing and my member is throbbing restlessly in my boxers.
That spectacular and sinuous body that moves almost dancing is driving me crazy.
Without warning Luisa comes closer and sits on me, her legs open at my hips and her breasts a few centimeters from my face.
I remain still.
The desire to touch her is growing stronger, I feel the contact of the skin of her thighs on mine, the heat of her naked pubis envelops my cock and shocks me.
Before I can lift a finger to touch her she whispers in my ear:
-”Don’t you dare touch me. You just have to watch, enjoy the show. Don’t undress, don’t jerk off, don’t even touch your sex. Observe in silence, as if you were part of the furniture. Is that clear?”.
I nod, paralyzed by her sharp but also extremely sensual voice.
Slowly she gets up and kneels doggy style on the bed, her ass and pussy less than a meter away from me, a breathtaking sight.
Her half-open lips reveal abundant excitement, she is completely wet, her clitoris peeks out between them, hard; she reaches out a hand from underneath and starts massaging it with two fingers.
The cock presses on the fabric, I don’t have to move, nor adjust it, I long to place my tongue on that wet and dripping sex.
Luisa’s moans drive me crazy, they are exaggerated, passionate, she is enjoying my presence.
She puts her fingers inside herself and seems to be paralyzed by that contact; the smell of sex that emanates is intoxicating.
She goes back to torturing the little button, while she brings the other hand from above to caress the anal hole that quivers and throbs.
The index finger makes its way into the anus, very slowly, and every millimeter of penetration is followed by a moan from her.
Her head resting on the mattress, her face turned back to look at me; with two fingers she goes crazy on the clitoris, increasingly swollen, while the other finger inserts it and plants it firmly in the ass.
My cock burns, it hurts so much, I’m sure it’s all red because of the tight underwear that contains it.
I move imperceptibly to try to rub it just a little on the fabric, to give myself a vague sensation of pleasure.
Luisa’s face is a mask of infinite enjoyment; suddenly she closes her eyes and abandons herself to the orgasm, stops breathing and enjoys it. –
“Aaahhh… Yess …
I remain still on the chair, waiting for instructions, while the member, increasingly painful, does not stop moving in his underwear; how I would like to take it in my hand and give it vent, ten seconds would be enough.
Luisa gets off the bed, comes closer and puts a finger under my nose, in front of my mouth.
-”Suck it.” – she orders.
It is the index finger, the one she has just used to masturbate her ass.
The smell it gives off is strong, intense, but exciting, I open my mouth and suck all that long thin finger that had made her enjoy so much.
She brings her face close to my ear and whispers:
-”I see you really enjoyed the show. I’m sorry about the vibrator, it wasn’t necessary today, but you’ll see it in action another time”.
-”Y…yes…that’s fine” – I manage to stammer.
-”Now go over there and pretend nothing happened. Don’t give yourself pleasure. Don’t enjoy. Don’t come. Do you agree?”.
No. I didn’t agree at all but I replied:
– “Yes, as you wish”
– “Good night”.
He kisses me on the cheek and lies down on the bed.
Frustrated and embittered I go out, closing the door behind me.
Dazed I drag myself to my bed and throw myself on it, face down.
A few rubs against the sheet are enough for me and, going against his orders, I come, I come copiously, wetting my underwear and the sheet.
I fall asleep like that, with my cock still aching and a thousand thoughts crowding my mind.
Impotent.
The only word that describes what I felt in the days following the event.
Impotent because I had completely let myself go into the hands of my cousin, who now controlled my sexual activity, in a Mistress-Slave relationship.
I was in a state of perpetual excitement, I was always on edge; at university I was looking at a beautiful girl? Erection. On the bus I was inadvertently rubbing against someone? Erection.
And she, above all, increasingly naked, increasingly horny and sexy; it’s not that she came to look between my legs every night, but if I had let off steam on my own again, I knew that she would have been able to find out.
I was going crazy; days and days of abstinence weighed like a mountain on my head and shoulders; my thoughts always and continuously went to Luisa, to her body, to her dripping pussy and her open little ass.
I tried to stay out of the house as much as possible, wandering around the city aimlessly, or, taking advantage of the good weather, going to study in the gardens, to spend as little time as possible near her, but this too was a suffering for me.
I had to submit to her rules and her times; I deluded myself that soon she would help me and allow me to let go, to free myself of all that oppressive weight and instead it was not so.
She wanted to drive me crazy, she was cruelly having fun with me as if I were her toy.
One evening I was comfortably stretched out on the sofa in the living room and reading a handout, concentrated on reading.
The open window allowed the evening breeze to enter the room, cooling me and mitigating the heat, now almost summery.
The door to her room opens and I hear her come and stand behind me.
-”What are you reading that’s cool?”
-”A university handout.”
-”Wow! Let me see.”
I feel the skin of her breasts rubbing my ears as she leans over me.
Her hand under my chin lifts my face and she prints a kiss on my lips, then she takes the handout and throws it on the floor, lifts one leg and climbs over the headboard and, completely naked, sits directly on my face, with her thighs surrounding my head.
Luisa’s vagina is right in contact with my lips.
I don’t say a word, scared by this bizarre and sensual initiative.
Incredulous and hesitant, I stick out my tongue and place it on my lips, trying to insert it in the middle.
She’s just gotten out of the shower and, still wet, she wants to show herself completely naked and have her pussy licked, scented with shower gel.
Crazy!!!
I push my way through her flesh and enter her vagina as far as I can with my tongue, finding it hot and very wet.
I move inside her as if I had a small penis instead of a tongue, quickly in and out, licking the internal walls and drinking everything that comes out of that infinite source of pleasure.
-”Take off your shorts.” – she orders.
Without stopping to eat that juicy fruit, I manage to lower the garment and finally take it off, remaining naked with my cock very hard and standing out.
She lifts herself up, turns around and sits on me again and puts her pussy back within reach of my tongue, moving her pelvis and rubbing her pussy and buttocks on my face.
She starts to fuck my tongue, bouncing on top of me amused, her butt hits my forehead and when she rises a few centimeters I can see her wonderful anal rose.
My tongue slides inside her quickly and I try to keep it as hard and firm as possible but it starts to hurt.
I feel a hand on my belly that slowly goes down towards my groin and caresses my balls in a very sensual way.
I start licking her clit slowly and she starts panting, while her hand goes down to touch her perineum and anus.
She’s about to come, I can feel it.
I lick faster and suck that vibrating button, making her emit guttural noises.
Her fingers continue to move on me, all over my genital area, but always without touching my member; I want to reach orgasm, the wait and the constant stimulation are becoming unbearable.
I make my mouth adhere completely to her pussy and I use only the tip of my tongue on her clit, moving it quickly and without stopping.
Luisa presses me more heavily on my face, as if to feel me more; her legs are shaking and her breathing stops, along with her movements.
She remains still, enjoying every single touch on her sex while a powerful orgasm is overwhelming her.
-“Now… Yeeeees… Don’t stop,,,” – and she enjoys, pouring a trickle of fluids on my chin.
I don’t stop until my cousin starts breathing in oxygen in full lungs again, panting heavily, and gets up, leaning on the edge of the sofa. My
whole mouth hurts, it was a long and passionate cunnilingus, never done before.
My member is hard and sore, hoping to receive attention.
-“You were fantastic.” – she tells me, smiling.
She gets up and kisses me quickly on the lips, heading towards her room.
I don’t believe it!! Is she really going to leave me like this again, suffering and delirious?”
A strange anger mixed with frustration appears in my defeated soul.
-“Luisa…”.
-”Yes?” – she says turning around.
-”Excuse me…sorry to ask, but, well, I can’t take it anymore” – I say pointing to my dick.
-”Oh, so what?” – she says with an amused expression.
-”Please…please, do something, I beg you” – I say desperately.
-”Are you serious?”
-”Of course! You can’t see the condition I’m in, I’m going crazy”.
-”Okay”.
-”Really?” – I say incredulously.
-”Yes, undress and lie down on the sofa”.
I don’t need to be told twice and I do it on the fly.
She comes closer, turns around, spreads her buttocks with her hands and places her asshole on my lips.
-”You lick it in the meantime”.
I take out my sore tongue and start to lap and penetrate that hole that still smells of bubble bath.
I feel an intense heat envelop my glans, then something soft slide along the shaft.
Luisa took it in my mouth, she’s giving me a blowjob!!!
She starts an up and down with her lips and I stiffen my tongue, penetrating as much as I can inside the anus.
It doesn’t take long, my balls are overflowing, a few more sucks and I feel the orgasm building inside me.
The sperm goes up the column and explodes in Luisa’s mouth.
I feel her suck and swallow everything that the cock manages to emit and while, finally, I’m relaxing, a fart comes out of her little hole hitting my face.
I hear her laugh, then she raises herself and stands up.
-“Are you satisfied now?” – she asks me smiling.
-“Yes, yes… Gra… Thank you.” – I answer.
She turns and heads towards the bedroom, leaving me exhausted on the sofa.